hahah finally no stress about the bmw! dont get me wrong i love how cute they are but it isnt cute when fixing it cost up to thousands of dollars... thats not cute! so went with dad to pick a new car! BOY if someone told me it would of taken so long i wouldn't have went with my dad... LMAO! was up there at 11 till... 4? YEAH! thats like... working hours man! i had the intentions on getting a scion tc since it looks uber sexy on the commercials but in person im like... wtf its so small HAHAH! and the other models... look so like a boy kinda car... so i got myself a camry! YUP! dark charcoal grey, tinted windows, mud flaps, and... none.. plastic rims? LMAO! i wanted leather... but i thought about how summer would be and how i would fry in the car... hehe so im super excited and i will bling out my car soon? im thinking about doing the buttons, the driving stick, car id, and keys! im sucha freak... but my car will be bad ass!


hehe okay so haul! went to ghetto hair shop? u know the ones with a lot of african american picture display in the front and when u go inside its like owned by some sort of asian? and have like ghetto bars around the building? YEAH! HAHAHA its the best! they sell cheap lashes, lots of hair goodies! ok if u havent tried dry shampoo and your hair gets easily oily like mine... you should try it! idk i have to wash my hair everyday! i also have thin hair, but by the end of the day it looks greasy... and i have like phobia of ppl seeing my hair that way... even when ppl say it doesnt look it i still like see it i guess? idk im wierd... but i love dry shampoo! it literally volumes my hair and takes out the oils! they had this gel kind... ive been using ojon and fekkai and they are powder form... but i tried the gel and idk... haha maybe ill keep trying it! also got some nyx jumbo pencils that ive been seeing in some youtube vids i think they look neat cant wait to try them out!

so after that went to barnes and nobles and picked up new issue of martha mag... yes shes like my idol? she makes and cooks so many things im like... so craft cooking craze now a days! jajaja and i also got a soap making book! it looks fun and can be sweet gifts! i cant wait to get my hands on making them :3 i made some kind of egg spinach pie today and my mom loved it and i totally forgot to take pic of it... idk if i can do cooking vids its hard to record and cook at the same time T_T i need to invest in those tripod things... i made yummy lettuce wraps for dinner! egg pie thing is for breakfast tomorow :3




and heres the doodle i was talking about in previous post? im starting to obsess over alice in wonderland and twilight music idk it kinda sets my mood? my minds not all here and the music seems like its just for me if that makes any sense... i express myself differently i guess hahaha! i feel like a cinderella who didnt find her happy ending and no not the one at massage parlors the old fashion fairy tale stuff! i like how... everday words mean something different... like pearl necklaces and strawberry shortcakes... i hate my guy friends...

ive been mia i knowww! lots going on atm! work and car... did i mention my parents sold it? so ive been driving my brothers and woosh he does not take care of it... hes a pain but some way of form i do love him hahaha. so birthday was fun! lasted for the whole week! spending time with family and friends are always fun! and going to dallas... is amazing! i want to move there someday and be one bad cosmo lady! thats whats up! HAHAHHAHA i think its so wierd when ppl hear me talk like... "ghetto" they laugh? im like really? i did grow up in a bad place with like ten ppl in one little house.. yeah projects... for sure... had to fight for my markers and pokemon cards! hehe kidding kidding. meeting up with old friends brings back a lot of good memories! and i got to hangout with new friends also i loved itt!


glimps of birthday gifts from my co workers! they even threw me a part which was so sweet... they treat me like a daughter and learn so much from them and so thankful to have them! idk having different ages and differnt types of ppl in my life is always a fun experience~ im always learning from others and it makes me feel like wow if that makes sense? i love learning about ppl idk why...


oh and im going back to art! i stuffed most of my art pieces under my bed and my friend wanted to see some of my things so it got me thinking... i was really good at it and missed it so i bought a nice leather journal looking thing that is like in the movies? AHAHAHAH its so cute... got the art pencils too! so i, if u didnt know... is obsessed with alice in wonderland.. im so getting the urban decay book and nail polishes! anything disney i like or love! i did have that mini video collection but was lost during lots of moving... i think when i have children and if they still do the unlock vault thingie for classic ill start collecting them again. alice in wonderland, snow white, little mermaid.. few of the classics! what inspired me... i guess my old thoughts and certain someone who is... inspiring me to be a better person hehe



someone wanted me to do tuts on stuff i cook... i thought that would be neat to share with u guys what do u think? should i make another youtube account just for foods? or use my styleganji account and make it a variety of things?? idk if i can make food and makeup into one channel thingo... hmmm! well this is a mix of stuff? chinese sausage scrambled eggs wih fish sauce and kimchi LMAO! i usually dont eat all the stuff u see prob just eggs... but i had cousins over and they have... i swear bottomless pits in their stomachs... they eat so much hahaha!



i brought my camera to work! and im glad to have! i got to take a pic finally of my work what do u think??? hahah i love beating face! and my client was so sweet and so funny! she just open up to me while i was doing her makeup haha which a lot do??? i guess its a very chill kind of relationship right? idk what im saying but i had fun doing her makeup! she looks so flawless? and she had the longest lashes EVER! i was indeed jealous~ im getting better at this stuff... i can do any type of skin color now and makeup doesnt take me as long! im pretty proud of myself! hehe~

and a little secret? stila is like... going to be baddd ass in spring and fall!!! im already... writing down what i like HAHAHA! im bad i know.... i just bought a lot of deco things from fullmoon... cant wait cant wait!!!!

so easy to say i cant sleep early thinking ill do good for myself... i end up waking up in the middle of the night wide awake! sleeping alone now is kinda harddd to tell you the truth... stay up more and wake up at odd times! sigh~ hehe i hope everyone had a lovely weekend! i had some good and bad things! birthday and valentines oh and new years is coming up! im excited for that and kinda nervous of whats to come~ 2010 i hope you will be good to me! 2009 was a hot mess filled with problems that i couldnt solve... deep stuff deep stuff but i started off positive this year! eating right and doing some yoga hahaha! im going to be so excited for the results! more energy more confidence though trying to be friends with ryan DID not help with tons of girls around! hehe but i guess ill have luck next time~ i would say he inspired me much how talented he is and all jaja!

did i tell you valentines is my favorite holiday? even if i dont get flowers or chocolates... (cries) hehe i like how ppl are happy well the ones i see? seeing happy wives come in with spa gift cards from husbands... or small gifts of perfume and such for their hunnies... its so cute!!! and all the pinks and hearts everywhere i love hearts mhm i think in happier times i was a hopeless romantic, but i was totally wrong to think my ex would feel the same as me hmm... i hope the person i find later in life i wont be cold but i think ill be cautious.. saying the love word.. i deslike to say to anyone.. when i do it feels fake? it takes me longer and longer to trust and to say it to people... i wont be ice woman, but i dont think i cant easily say "i love you" to anyone... with that said im not the type to jump from one guy to the next nope i have been on and off with ex for 4 years. yeah he left me for other girls and didnt treat me that great... but hes actually the first guy, first love sigh~ i tried my best and he couldnt so things just fell apart. it was really really tough for me but i got over it in time like everyone said and focused on me instead of him. he was obviously not on the same page as me sooo i think from this i grew up, gain more confedence and wont give a rats ass about him bc hes not worth my tears... each one.. made me stronger and he was just a boy. im going to finish cosmo school and be great at it! sure im not brainy, but ill get by! after i save enough i want to go to cullinary school or something with arts im terrible in math, but art is my passion im good at it and im strong in it sure i do things the hard way, but i get it done hehe so i think i have my life set! just waiting for mr. right to come along and share this life with me! im really really excited haha and maybe my shopping habits will slow down... i want to travel also so yes resolution? get healthy, learn to play piano the right way, make more videos, blog more often, get an apartment, find mr. right, and be happy about everything!





sorry such a long post on that one hehe i just feel extra odd at.... 3 in the morning! ok so haulage i just love the philosophy body wash, bubble bath, shampoo stuff? LOL so many things u can use with this stuff? and clean your makeup brushes with it too~ i loveee peppermint hot coco and caramel apples so having that linger on the skin hehe im going to test it and ask my guy friends to smell me :p got the bare mineral kit with the pink alligator skin type bag... i just wanted the stipling brush and bag to tell u the truth... kinda gave my cousin the other things it came with lol! sephora eye primer is farely good! and cheaper in price from other primers, i needed new tinted moisturizer and decided to try tarte and i have to say coverage is good, but kinda thick? like diors or lisa miran, but minus the sun block smell all in all i like the coverage! i tried the too faced lighted mascara andd it is ok? it doesnt give a lot of thickness but it does extend them a bit! i thought it was neat to have a light? yay now i can do my mascara in the dark! jk jk! hehe now the benefit sugar bomb... tastey looking? well the display was! i thought it would smell chocolatly like the toofaced bronzer but its not... thought it was bronzer too but its a blusher! it is a darkish pink red color and it looked nice on my cheeks! i would say its a tone down sort of blush not like nars orgasm so theres not a lot of shimmer, but nice color to it! ok so... i like the urban decay big nasty brush thing... i think its for boddy glitter but ill use it to sweep off hair on clients? LOLOL i thought it was oh so cute! i want to bling it out!!! so thats my haul... with review! hahaha!



went to target also and had SOOOO many valentine inspired items! i bought stuff for future apartment? yes i do collect things... im so drivin and cant wait to get one! counting down the days hehehe~ i love hearts and pink but i dont think its good to have every room pink even though i would LOVE that! i think my kitchen appliences will be pink... hehehe maybe i should be a stalker and see when the valentines stuff go down... the plates and cups are sooo cute!



on sat rarely do i have that day off spent it with a few friends and one was cyndi who i met on youtube? she is super cute and nice i admit i love her! she even gave me a birthday gift! hahah ill wear it whenever i see her or with fun clothes! day was amazingly fun went to hmart and ate lots of yummy things, bought a lot of bakery goods! mozart cafe is so... adorable... i wish they had those cappucino art thingos? i would love to try that! i love cafe bakery places i think its so warm and friendly and it was filled with cute koreans jajaja! we also went to the movies and saw sherlock holmes it was sooo funny! me and cyndi laughed throughout everything! safe to say i think cyndi is the best to go with for movies! hahaha usually i go with my family... and they dont have easy humor as i do? LOL!!! also bought some plushies! i bought a pink cute tofu to hug to sleep and some cute sanrio character slipper i dont know his name... its so effing long! but its the little racoon bear thing that likes coffee? LOL and i had to have it!

all in all it was amazingg after that though... not so much... when i barely turned into my street... my car started to rumble and DIED i was like NOOOOOO! i was thinking it was my tire bc it was a grinding noise... but it was something in the inside... so me... with all my goodies.... waddeling home in the freezing night... it was 17 i believe? so as is i couldnt feel my face or fingers... walked all the way home to get my brother to help me see whats wrong... he couldnt figure it out so we had to push my car to a safer spot... ugh... i deslike bmw... yeah its cute, but parts are so dang expensive and after five years? forget about it! down hill from there... i have x5 and it was my first car... HAHA it was my moms but my dad has this stupid hummer obsession and bought two :D smart right??? stupid cramp cars... and he had stickered the car with the business on it? so it was big and cramped in the inside with ghetto water and half naked lady on it... truely... hate rolling up to church in the big ass ghetto water car... HAHAHAHAH but im gettin g it towed later on today and have to take brothers car to work... sigh... i think im so unlucky... dad was majorly pissed and he loves blaming me for everything so sunday mornings with parents is not my cup of tea



ohh so ive been thinking ive been on soompi and theres threads about fave bloggers and they mention why its their fave? idk what my blog is?? mostly hauls and my insane life... i guess i should start putting reviews of products? and picture tutorialss oooooo but i will say this it will take me longer haha simply bc i hate uploading photos and editing all of them... i deslike ppl taking them and saying its their own really ticks me off! LOL sorry for writing so much! im more of a picture person, but sometimes if i see funny things ill read to the end or revealing of dark secrets or reviews on products i had my eye on? LOLOL! my favorite bloggers would be disire, lotus palace, xiaxue, siru, xppinkx, eki just a few i follow tons of ppl simply bc i think they are amazing but i like style type blogs with makeup, fashion, and food! hehe what is your fave bloggers? and new years resolutions?! too lazy to put copyright... now i can sleep now knowing i posted HAHAHAHA jk jk


ok ill give a tip?? LOLOLOL eyebrows! if u have thin horrible ones like mine or have some gaps to fill? i like to get them waxed or threaded but once u get them cleaned and arched, when using pencil or powder do in short strokes! and go with your natural eyebrow hairs. you can exagerate them, but i dont want them to look so fake. i like dior eyebrow pencils and for wax and powders... i love wax! wax makes the hairs go one way and helps the powder to stay on~ mmm tarte, anastasia, and too faced have wonderful eyebrow kits! hahah i want my blog to be more variety!!!

i think ill also tell you my progress? i lost 3 pounds on first week i am super happy! i found out that i eat under 1800 cals a day so i was super excited about that! gave up coke or tryingg i have a few sips of my brothers from time to time when we go eat HAHAHA i also eat less rice so one bowl and fill up on veggies and meat! ive also been stuffing my face with shitake mushrooms since i heard its good for the skin... eating carrots to help my poor eyess and tomatoes to reduce risk of cancer? i hate tomatoes i really do... LOLOLL! ive also been jogging and doing crazy stretches while watching martha stuart... yes... shes my idol... oh and ive been packing lunches too!

its great way to start the day by wakeing up at 11! my sleep patterns are a bit wack! so i only work three days this week so ill take this time to clean my god awful room! i swear... i have too much clothes for my own good... buy a new outfit for every event wth im going to go broke! haha! and im totally trying to slow down on buying makeup! god knows i dont need anymore? new things make me all giddy.... really bad i know... hehe lately ive been going to bed bath and beyond and stores with furniture things? and it makes me want to like hurry my ass with school and get my own place! i sooo want one badly! i deslike sharing bathrooms and cleaning up after my ungreatful siblings haha i love them, but geesh... im tired of babying the monsters! (who i love a lot haha!) so cleaning atm! cleaned out my computer and saw old pics and fun little things i use to do! do u ladies know haduri things that ulzzangs use? hahah i have the programs and cant even read korean! i am so wierd... i found so many gifs ive done and i think i look like a big dork!!! this one though isnt that old idk im bored easily... and if i try to play games when im bored i get sleepy... or watch tv... im like wth. so if u want me to sleep just put a game, tv infront of me :D!



so i want a new camera... my 400$ fuji one is not as bad ass as samsung tl220 ugh! bad ass camera!!! u can have a screen in the front so that u can take great pics without having to turn it around and see if u like that pic or not! its like... best thing ever... HAHAHAH! less wasting time! im going to save up for the camera jajaja! and its touch screen??? im in love! one con though its kinda thick but still i want it! hehehe



bought some more crafts! im thinking about doing little mini jars and fill it with cute stuff? phone charm idea haha i have tons of ideas and finally doing some on my spare time! i hate my days off it feels way too short! but i am trying my best haha! got tons of videos that need editing... just one thing at a time i guess! and bought some pink hair rollers and mirror! cuz u know i cant have enough pink things hehehe



oh and happy holiday and new years! gosh i totally forgot! hahaha i had a blast! went clubbing and quest was there my beloved ryan! omgee... im like old school fan! i told him that too and they were like oh man u gotta party with us bring your drink and ladida lets just sayyy i was super happy that night... i was offered a lot of drinks and i have to say i didnt like them much but i took them x_x i laughed at everything tripped on everythinggg and when the ball dropped i got so many kisses!!! guys and... girls 0_0 some from who i knew and then some? HAHAHA! i thought i would be getting those air kisses... but i was wrong i guess ppl are just extra happy when they are drunk and it is a custom to kiss for the new years? i guess ive been missing out! ;D oh and i dont like my smile... ppl tell me to and i get in the moment... i so dont like to smile... my lips get super thin and u see a lot of teeth.. LOL!!! idk why i just dont like to! my outfit was all from forever21~ i wish they had one near me... anywho my fave thing was the blinged out flats i felt soo so sooo glam! and i did ricebunny's new years glitter look and to my surprise lipgloss makes it stay on way better than the mist n fix! instead of all the colors she used i just stuck with white and black hehe




i like sales after the holidays? and bath and body works everything i liked was five bucks! i wouldve gotten carried away if my mother wasnt there haha shes like omg your crazy put that back! T_T... it makes my room smell pretty though! big sigh! hahaha! and some conditioner ive been needing! i run out of conditioner so fast... jajaja i like shopping with parents even though i get the end of the stick... parents bought my brother 150 dollar jeans just to find out he didnt register for classes... boy... all of us got a lecture...

see... how i think i want to do cosmo stuff till i get tired of it and do my college basics during that time too or all of it im not sure i want to own businesses or manage so yeah lets just say i gotten a lot of motivation from new friends! and im not so gloom over ex anymore hes obviously doing fine without me and doing watever he wants? he said merry christmas to me out of the blue hoping im doing fine... yeah u ass... left me here of course i am :D though he did make me stronger... i dont think i want to find or share certain feelings towards any new guy... ill be more cautious for the heart and i def do not want to feel hurt ever again! new years resolution going to be happy and get my ass in the game. i cant be the bell of the ball if i dont put myself out there! in the process yes ive gotten ppl who hate me, but i just pitty you for not becoming a friend. so im going to get healthier, more out there, make more friends, do my best and get everything that i want!



anywhoos... i youtube up how to make ribs and this guy with silly accent made some that looked amazing! and it was super easy hahaha and i had all the fixings! i think i really like cooking! its right up there next to artsy fartsy stuff i enjoy hehe! lmao it looks super shiny~

super simple recipe for oven ribs:
ribs
celery & onions & garlic
lipton onion soup
bbq sauce
water

step one: cut the ribs between the bones? and place into deep baking pans mmm... the ones u bake brownies in? HAHAHAH!

step two: chop up the onions, garlic, and celery! thick pieces! and sprinkle on top of the ribs use as much veggies as you like!

step three: add water to the pan! just enough to cover the bottom and then add the lipton onion mixture~

step four: pour in the bbq sauce of your choice and cover with foil! bake at 350 for two hours and uncover 15 min to brown the top and glaze it with more bbq if u want :3

hehe so i decided im going to not dwindle my time away and focus on finishing school and lots more! ive been really trying to do my best but drama seems to follow me everywhere? work and at home, but that doesnt really matter im just not going to give a damn! im doing this for me and oh i took out my chatter box since theres always a hateful person saying something thats well rude?

to haters: hmm... next time you see me why dont you intro yourself instead of ohhh messaging me anonymously on my chatter box? did i do something to you for you to be so effing rude? keep my name out your mouth you dont know me obviously and i kinda feel sorry for you... to waste your energy on me and to talk all that noise? yeahhh i dont think i said im perfect? did i say anything to hurt your feelings??? im truly truly sorry you feel that way and had to go through the trouble of talking smack onto my chatter... get to know me dear before you spit un thoughtful words.

sigh~ i dislike little girls. treat others the way you want to be treated is what i go by... idk why i have these ppl coming into my life you dont really hurt me i just pity them bc they dont know me and decide to do that its kinda... tiring and i just wish girls wouldnt be like that... its srsly such a waste of time to be angry! i wont let me down nope... this year im changing what about you?

im not saying im a saint or perfect im not! but why do i get this crap when i want to do or show something i like? ohhh am i not allowed to???! why the hell are you even wasting your time on my blog or anything else?! srsly... its tiring it makes me want to just stop blogging and youtubeing... people are just so ugly in the inside and its not necessary! what are u jealous of me? what the eff is your reason??? please email me or comment me why you have to be so ugly towards me???

if you think im spoiled or some shit like that you have it so effing wrong! i work hard for what i get! dont think other wise!

its just tiring really to see ppl go so low and say such things. this year im going to change what about you? haters... waste so much time hating... adds wrinkles and waste so much time... shit you can be doing useful stuff but no u decided to stalk me. go ahead. waste as much time as you like i dont give a darn... yeah i maybe not skinny, but i can lose it and i am a better person than you so what do u have? its a new year dear get over your stank personality.

and im sorry that i had to post this... it is a waste of my time, but its getting annoying... ill post up some hauls i bought maybe on tuesday. sorry again if you wonderful ladies have to read this... going through a lot and it just keeps piling up woosh~~~