Hello love bug! Been forever since I've done anything with my blog or youtube, but life isnt throwing me curveballs so I will be able to be more active! So here is whats new with me... Birthday was a hit, dating again, quit my horrible job, moved, and new obsessions. Lets get to it!


Last month was pretty hard getting settled into new situations and birthday was spent with a few ppl that matter most to me! I am glad to have them in my life! Co workers are like my family... and a couple I even grew up with so it is a blessing! that got me this "wedding" cake that is popular and tasted like heaven! After that I had smaller family dinners and individual friend dinners haha it was great!

I also quit my job that I honestly hated for such a long time. A women that hated me for no reason and gave me hard time, made me work harder for no reason... Bc her husband favors me? (who is the boss) or is it bc I wasn't stick thin? I tried my hardest to get her to like me.. I did everyone's chores, never spoke out, gave great customer service and after all that she still treated me like crap. I never will understand her work ethics. Tbh she is very childish and petty... For a grown ass woman. I don't regret working there since I met good ppl, but she is honestly... such a bitch. Shouldn't work somewhere with that type of vibe... Sad that I stayed in for that long. It is also sad... That many yelp reviews complain about her too lol and half  her staff leaves like... You would think you'd see the errors of your ways!


Sorry... mini vent haha so! Co workers and I started using dating apps for fun and one of the girls... Found a man! isnt that crazy?! So me and this other girl decided hey we should actually try this out and not just look through profiles ahaha! So the one I went on a date with... photos must of been hella old (LOL) but we exchange text messages back and forth for weeks? until hes like super persistent to meet up which is fine. I was super rusty so I didn't really want dinner... I hate eating... with ppl idk? Is that strange? I just dont feel comfortable and then that adds stress so... I turned to trusty facebook events and found this... acoustic grand opening something... It was called cinderblocks and it was like this art studio/music/ They lived there, but it was totally a hipster scene and I felt so bad LOL! But I totally need some distractions or else it gets akward right? Or im just... weird hahaha! Anyways he was super chill about it and sweet so it was nice!

I moved out of the place I was renting and... I have no idea renting from old vietnamese ppl was so difficult? They tried to get me to pay an extra month and all kinds of bullshit and I was so pissed! Not to mention they havent given me back my deposit... Its been a freaking month. A friend recommended it to me and I so regret living there... Moving in general sucks... 3rd time and all bad experiences...

So yeah! That is whats up on my end! Rekindled friendships that were lost over I guess pride, Will do a video on my birthday presents, I have started to coupon again! and many more to come! Sorry Ive been away... Promise it will be better! Love and thanks!

I know its been awhile and I feel like its going to be that from time to time haha, but at least I do come back! At the moment I am into just hippie things I guess if you want to categorize how I feel? Herbalism is such a great thing to me... I hate taking medicine and things that can harm the body in the long run? You see all these ppl that live out in the country have better health and living long.. I want to live a great life some day so I need to start now in my 20s before its to late!

SooooOooOooo what is up with me? I am still working a lousy job, but the money is decent. I just wish asian ppl in that industry wasnt so rude or judgmental? I honestly can say... I dread going into work with one of my managers, but I try my hardest to do well and be nice to ppl around me bc... Life shouldnt be about putting ppl down or treating them like shit. Treat others the way you want to be treated is what I go by in life and so far... I am doing fine.


Ive been obsessing with growing things or making things with my two hands lately. I love all the plants that Ive collected through the months! Air plants are so neat! But I dont understand why they are so freaking expensive! I went through a succulent phase, but those are actually pretty hard to maintain when you only have one window in your room haha! I wanted to keep it on my makeup table, but ive notice they started to die... Soo pricey too! So I made a little haven in front of my window... I was suppose to build my ikea chair and have a cute set up, but I am such a procrastinator... I have a bed side table that still needs to be assembled and a couple of drawers to make... LOL I honestly  need a man in my life to do those type of things... doing stuff by myself takes FOREVER!!!!


I have been shopping lots lately... Mostly at daiso... WHICH IS A BLESSING THAT THEY FINALLY CAME TO DALLAS!!!!! I went to daiso in seattle and that was like 5 years ago, but I flipped out and bought so much from there! The dallas location is fairly large and have a variety of items to pick from for $1.50 - $3 which is pretty awesome. I need to do a room tour soon just have to sort through this messy room... CRYING


Here is my most recent haul video for last month! If you missed out on it of course haha! Memebox and sephora is bomb as always hehe! I will be back to u in a bit! theres a few videos im working on and I downloaded better video editing stuff so yeah... I will do better with my videos! Thanks for staying with me for so long xoxo

Hello my beautiful soul. I realized that... I have been beating myself up and making things worse than it should be. Struggling to understand things that happen when I should just move on from it. I lost a lot of friends and its normal. People grow apart and do different things, see different people, and do things without you. I think that was the biggest event that happened in my life. I thought being together for 5+ years would hold a  factor into the mix, but its just memories, a good run while it lasted. I was just in a bitter phase and thought like why can't I find someone to stay loyal to me like I am with others? World just doesnt work that way or in ones favor, so I find myself ok with everything now. I am older now and I know what I need to do with my life. I have to be there for myself and just take things as it comes and work on myself which is another hurdle. Loving myself and getting to the place I want.

My long term goals that I will work on:

Be more forgiving and less judgmental. I didnt realize how zero minded I was when it came to certain things. How I would stick my nose up to certain ppl by the way they dress or what the tried to be. I didnt realize how judgmental I was until I worked with such awful ppl. By being different was so hated like I didnt know I was different in others eyes and it woke something up inside me... More compassion or forgiveness? I have no clue. I just didnt want to be zero minded asshole.

I want to love myself. I think this will be the journey that hurts the most and the longest. I have been trying for years, but I always set myself up for failure when things dont go the way I want and the results come in slow. Ive always struggled with my weight and with  relationships. I get lonely sometimes and venture out to find someone to fill that void only to have them make it deeper. I cant love someone when I cant even love myself. I dont see things through when I dont get the results I want and that mind set will never get me anywhere. So I need to stop making excuses and go through with things. It would be so much nicer to find a workout buddy that is close by to be more motivation!

Youtube grind. I have been in it for years and seeing these girls surpass me and have killer travel experiences gets me so riled up! Like I could be living that life! Yet I hold myself up... That pressure of being judged plus my camera settings and video edits are in need of major work... It is hard to be in this type of industry when everyone trying to do the same... Like I want to be different, but all these girls doing the same thing. How can I even compete with that?  I bought all these expensive things to be a guru, but having that self confidence and knowledge of video edits I am lacking in. Hopefully soon I can be better and get the views and youtube life together... That would be a dream come true.

SO goals. be more friendly and get into shape so that I can achieve better things in life! Will try to be more active on here and update you guys better since I have more off days and more time to myself instead of worrying about others.

I know I am so on and off with this whole online hobby thing I have going... Its been a long journey and I still havent hit the living off youtube life style, but hopefully I can one day! Not getting any younger and... All these young girls doing it right and I am here being an old hag trying to keep up with things like... GEEZ! Let a sistah have a break and spill some old lady knowledge with you.
SOOOO with that being said, as many of you guys know I have been going through such an emotional ride these past few years and with age comes with a lot of stress and obstacles and I feel like I put myself into situations I dont want to be in, but somehow it always happens. I have anxiety and I am too nice at times and let people walk all over me its just the way I am and slowly trying to change.


Moving to a new city within Dallas... Further from work... I learned how to be a speed racer these past few months! Living in a gated community with a roomy is actually ok. I was so stressed out about his family and him, but hes ok. I am thankful for the person who told me about it, but we grew apart and not into the same things which is fine. 5 years flushed down the toilet seems to be my thing lately. losing friends is part of life and no point getting sad about it! I wish early in life someone would of told me... Friends come and go like it honestly would of saved me hassle from being depressed about it? I get overly attached and jealous. Not a good combo right? I have such loyalty embedded in me I just wish I had the same in return, but people like me are a dying breed. I am a capricorn after all.

As for youtube... I dont have the confidence in making videos on myself anymore. Just the ware and tare after years of just judgment from online ppl makes me not so keen on sharing my face. I mean so many tutorials out there these days how can I fit into the mix? Its like been there done that type of thing. I just dont know what is the right thing to show. My followers are based on hauls and such these days since... I am a well seasoned shopper haha. ootd seems out of the question since I wear black for work... plus working everyday so its boring? I am not motivated to get dolled up anymore bc of that and going out is just not existent right now. I feel like im such a homebody as I grow older and DATING? Do not get me started... I want this life with kids and stuff, but I loathe dating... Logic in that? I have no idea haha! But back into topic... Every Thursday I will try to upload something or blog. I have a box full of giveaway items and never did the giveaway... So many things to do and my lazy bum just crying about it. Will change that from now on! You guys see the post and I am ready to get out of this slump I am in!


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