Hello pumpkin! It has been a long time since I had a chance to touch base with you! A lot of drama, sweat, blood, and tears these past few months and frankly... I am so glad to be out of that chaos... As many of you know... I decided to move in with a friend, to test the waters of living away from my family and cheaper rent. Everyone told me and advice me never move in with a friend unless you know they can keep up their end. BOY WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT LISTEN?! Long story short, I let a lot of bullshit slide and a total of... 6 ppl living with me with no money. 6 ppl should make rent super cheap and easy right? NOPE. Dont get me started on the landlord! So much stupid drama happened when it could of easily been fixed, but instead it was let to linger and fester and having all of us to move out. GREAT! I was at this point, stressing like never before, scrambling trying to figure out where im going to live and what not, MIND YOU during this time I got a new job and transitioning out of my old job so money was already tight as is. I finally found a place near my work and it is in this melting pot of foreigners and oh my god lol its pretty ghetto on the outside... but I got a loft and its so nice inside... My neighbors... however... I swear theres like a circus LOL so many ppl living in this one bedroom loft...

Being an adult is really hard... I have to pay this new renter fee that kicked me in the butt, non refundable.. and my roomate? Had the audacity to ask me about money? Which was fine if we were all to split it equally, but no. apparently 2 ppl couldnt pay cuz of being broke? OK? and she started giving me this sob story that just irate me when she said we have to pay bills bottom line. Well u should preach to the other two, but again she sticks up for them and I ONCE AGAIN get the short end of the stick. I paid of course just so that I have nothing to do with them again. Oh. and did I mentioned they stole my ugg boots? LOL! Good god no fucking sympathy to any of them.

I am pretty much by myself... had to get movers on my own... move things and do everything by myself... luckily my good friend Christian helped when she can, but it is the struggle and I feel so depressed all the time and hopeless... I know this hard time will pass and I will do better later on, but I srsly cant see it and handle everything... I am also homesick, but I want to prove to my family and myself I can do this... I need to go church and pray lawdddd..

My new job? Just opened so it is an amazing salon that is brand spanking new and my co-workers are so nice and sweet, but theres a language barrier... I am the only one that speaks well haha other than my boss and manager, who are siblings! Speaking of boss... We will call him Mr. B is always flirtatious with me and always wants to go eat out LOL I never... Had this type of work type relationship? He is my boss haha that forbidden love interest... Hes not married... but has 2 kids? I decided to look him up in my book of birthdays and compatibility  and guess what he is under? He is my soulmate LOOOL!!!!! Usually... When I read someones horoscope or zodiac signs to see if compatible or not.... Is on point. So with my exes or friends It is pretty spot on... So with that being said and finding him under my soulmate... I am conflicted since... It is better relationship for work vs. love interest? I am a control freak capricorn and he is as well in a way... But I am more timid and shy where as hes the opposite. I wonder if "opposites attract" applies to this.

So this is pretty much what is going on in my life right now. Escaping bullshit from ex roomates to working my butt off trying to make ends meet. I lost a lot of so called friends and pretty much by myself these days and its really hard to go through... I will try to finish moving in and make videos on the side and figure out what what I have to do to stay sane... Sorry to keep you waiting all the time! I do miss making videos and blogging! Life is just srsly so hard right now and a lot of times I just want to break down and cry, but what good would come out of that? Im trying to prove myself right now... Lets see how far I can go!

Hello Cutie!  Sorry I have been away for so long, but safe to say I am finally done moving in and everything seems perfect in a sense? I have been going through a lot of crazy emotions due to ex friends and ex lovers and I am just emotionally strained so I have been trying to keep myself busy and trying to work more... Also going back onto my extreme diet and changing myself for the better... I did it once... I can do it again! I am going to work hard here on out and of course be more active on here with you! With that being said I attended a few events that I managed to get on camera!

Index-Festival Is a pretty awesome show in Deep Ellum where live bands perform and it was a 3 day weekend event! I only went on sunday so it was just a little crowd, which is something I prefer better than the hustle and bustle of too many ppl! A lot of well dressed people attended and great music! I had fun catching up with my dear friends from Loyal KNG and got to hear some cool bands




Vynil Art Show Deep ellum always has an event going on and i feel like theres always a vinyl show with free drinks i mean hey why not? get to view/buy peoples awesome art skills and u get to enter into raffles to win kick ass prizes? not to mention u get free alcoholic beverages ( i dont drink but juice is always yummy) plus hanging out with friends is always awesome!










Lolita Birthday Meetup My friend Mar had a joint birthday with another gal and it was a tea party shindig where you had to dress up in lolita and i... never worn it nor was i all too keen about it, but I mean I wanted to experience it at least once and boy all i felt like doing was lifting up the dress LOL! my friend christian lent me her black dress and i felt like i was this innocent little school girl! I really like how puffy everything was super cute! I opp out a lot of the gear bc I am not a girly girl tbh... well dressing up wise I am far from it! My style varies honestly... I like the trends and also bohemian looks but lolita is a thing on its own... its like a super hero gear, you can be entirely someone else and feel awesome in it! I give kudos to the girls that can sport this all the time! Though I am not so sure about anime ppl dressing anime in public for like everyday shit like wtf? LOL no... All in all it was awesome experience! The tea place itself... was expensive as hell! $20 per person for a few sandwiches and cake like... WHAT? I could of made SOOO MANY FOODS for that amount of money, but again... experience... paying for the experience lol







And here is a short clip of it all! I hope you enjoy the little photos and what not! Its hard to lug around all my cameras and such...  I should just buy a little hand held one instead of my two large cameras lol! ugh my life... Anywho I hope to fill you all in soon with my life and get this on a roll! Going to be strong about my goals this time around so wish me luck!

Hello cutie! Been awhile I know! I have been in the process of moving and it has taken me way longer than expected, but I managed to finally move in and trying to get situated... which is still in the works as we speak! Also roomates are throwing a house party and I am no where near finished unpacking...  Stress levels are super high at this point and I have to pick up my dresser that is waiting for me at this awesome thrift shop! I wonder if they swap items for items... I bought a dresser off craigslist still in box brand spankin new only to mess that shit up... never have I seen such a complicated fucking dresser! drawers are all crooked and im just here like WOMP.  You can actually see it in the photo how horrid that dresser is... I even had christian help me and it still came out being a piece of shit LOL! I bought a lot of cute decor from ross like the curtains and many other things! I think I spent over $400 on decor and about $200 in house essentials so broke.... Just so much stress


On the plus side to moving to dallas area is that I have access to all these yummy food places! not to mention stores where I can coupon! No more living in the boonies! I am so excited to like be done and officially moved in! I feel like my instagram has become this foodie thing lately haha! I have a strong passion for food huehue!


So other than moving and eating out, I am working two jobs just incase something happens orz I work at a korean cafe in the morning and head straight to salon after that... talk about brutal... I am not a morning person and having to wake up 4am and work till 12pm then to another job running on 4 hrs of sleep daily... I feel like im going to pass out LOL I will prob have this sched for two months or until i find a salon that has high cliental coming in! It sucks sometimes when you in this type of industry.... Times are hard so ppl dont really pamper themselves as much as it use to be.. But once I get the hang of doing false nails and eyelash extensions I will be a jack of all trades :3!!! I just want to make a lot of money and travel... Thats a goal of mine hehe! Any who that is about it on my end! I hope you have a great weekend xoxo!

Hello cutie! I was lucky enough to get front row seats for the fashion show that was put together by a friend! I didnt realize the lolita community was so large here in texas! A couple of my friends actually do it and I think its so cute! I wouldnt know how to act dressing in lolita in this texas weather so I give kudos to these girls!


Here is a video on all the outfits from fashion show! Sorry for the angle and shakyness I had no tripod and ended up sitting on the floor due to not getting in everyones view? lol!



There were so many great looking lolitas at san japan i just wished i had four more hands or someone to help take photos haha! recording and taking photos was a complete struggle! There was also a lot of venders that sold lolita items even angelic pretty was there! and a few others! Becoming a princess is super pricey and takes up lots of room! I was thinking about doing a lolita segment on my channel and see their day and lives!! What do you guys think?


I have been watching kawaii international as well and I like how the show displays variety of ppl interested in the japanese culture! Makes me miss doing gal makeup! I have been pretty much watching this all week religiously!