Hello my lovely, how are you? I am happy to say that I will slowly get back into doing what I love best! I wish I was more persistent with blogging and doing videos, but alas ppl around me dont understand this passion and I let ppl talk me out of things, but from now on... I will do what I enjoy and try to make time for it so lets work hard for what we want to do!

My cousin went to visit her bf in Japan for a family affair and I have to say I was so jealous of her! I've always wanted to go, even live there! The culture and food... Everything it just seems like a dream to be there... I watch ppl on youtube vlog about it and I just envy. The new generation of girls that make videos are so good at it, get to travel get to do all these things I wanted to do, I honestly wish I was more persistent with the youtube stuff... I let ppl that dont understand this talk me out of it and its one of my truest regrets of all. Hopefully now, I can do what I love doing and maybe grow it bigger. I have to work on myself and work hard for something that can make me happy because what I've been doing... Is just work and I pour way too much into it and no enjoyment what so ever! I guess thats how it is when you're trying to adult haha!

Any who lets get back to the goodies! I gave my cousin a small list of things and she delivered! I want to go badly... Saving up is a pain, but I will go soon! She got me my essentials and whatever else she thought was nice so I am super happy with the small things hehe!


These things dont fit my nose that well haha, but it gets the job done! charcoal nose peels for blackhead is soso! I want to find something more effective than these, but it was fairly cheap vs. buying americanized ones .


So this girl left me one candy, but she knows I like cute packaging hahaha!


I asked her to get me a few face masks and only got me this one T_T but packaging looks really pretty and theres a lot of masks in this pack.


Ok... Gyaru days... I had a lot of these and for something to put in my bag I wanted to get this again haha I mean if you have the means of getting this cheaper why not? I really like the colors for this and the packaging is pretty as well!


This mascara is like holy grail mascara... the lil fibers that add to my non existent lashes is a godsend! It also came with a cosmetic bag that is cute too.


I love this face wash to pieces! A refill to my stash of facial cleansers


I needed a new liquid liner so she found these for me in black and brown! I am really excited to try these out!

I recently got into this egg character from sanx and she got me this little cup haha! My cousin is obsessed with cups and ofc she got me one.


And lastly a cleansing oil! I am really thankful she managed to get me all this stuff haha! I wish I could get more, but I need to go there myself and experience it all and buy all the things I want hehe! I just need friends to go with me hue... Trying to plan a vacation with friends is difficult... Its either they have kids or no funds to go... I am here just wishing to go! I am like so chicken to travel alone though T_T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe one day... Find a travel buddy heh


That is about it on my small haul from Japan! I love my cousin to bits for these goodies! I will try to post more later on! I have to set up a filming section. Since I have a lot of money saved, I've been mostly decorating my apartment where I spend most of my time from work. Just going out is a hassle for me in a new city and making friends is actually really difficult, but I want to do many things soon. I will keep you guise posted! thank you for being sweet and understanding! Have a great week!

Hello my dear friend. It has been a very long time, but I feel like the paste has slowed down a little for me. As some of you know I have moved from my beloved Texas to Oregon. I always told myself I would leave Tx one of these days and now that I have? I feel so homesick... Texas starting to get into the foodie scene and honestly DFW area came a long way! We even started getting Daiso haha! So now I moved out of my improving state to some small town in Oregon. The weather out here is so different to the bi-polar weather in Tx and Ive never seen so many trees in my life! This place is beautiful to retire in honestly haha, but as for my love of exploring and what not I have to drive all the way to Portland. Why move out of Tx you ask? It is basically a career move for me. Something to build my future on. Ive always been very independent and work for everything that I want, so with a leap of faith I decided to just pack my bags and leave my precious hometown.


As for work, I am in the cannabis industry and safe to say... This stuff has so many health benefits for ppl who are ill and I believe in their health properties! I came in not knowing much, in a world of its own and the people here are very different... I always try to think the best in ppl, but this industry is very cut throat and I wasnt prepared for it at all. I had to take on a lot of work and it was emotionally draining me and I had many dark moments of quitting and moving back home, but I endured it and got rid of toxic ppl so now its a little better, learning things everyday, throwing my diy spirit in the mix, and saving money haha! I am really trying to find good things about moving here and trying to experience things the best I can. Theres a lot on my plate, but I want to continue to blog and do videos when I can! hopefully set up a station to do hauls and such.

I get cute comments from you guys how you miss me and want videos and those ppl... Really push me to go forward. It is kind of hard to get back into something that other girls coming in know how to edit better, younger, vibrant and doing things more than I so it was always discouraging, but I will try to do my best and hopefully be able to mustard enough courage. So till then I wish you a happy life and lets work hard for our future <3 p="">

Hello my wonderful reader. It has honestly been longer than I wanted it to be, but life somehow... Always gets the best of me. It honestly has been a crazy emotional rollercoaster, but as I grow older.. I find myself not so selfish and worrying about every little problem that comes my way, so with that being said let's go through the mess together.
I finally realized that I hoarded way too many things for my liking. I mean I'm just one person and shouldn't have so much clutter. Since I am always moving with the wind, it dawned on me that hey... Someone could really use this! I gave a huge chunk of my clothing to salvation army, decluttered my life and honestly I feel so much better. Getting rid of things instead of getting attached and knowing someone else can enjoy them.. Feels great.
Speaking of moving.. I am actually going to move out of state! Ive lived in Texas all my life and.. Ive seen it grow into such a great thing and remembering when I was younger, how I wish we would have things like californians have it only to slowly gain some of that... I will miss it. I am moving to an unknown area and will fill everyone in soon! I am scared and excited for this new adventure in life and a new job where I wont experience toxic people or hope that I wont.
I have also found myself breaking out of my shell and tried the dating scene. I mean I will be 30 soon and need to start going out in the world and frankly... The guys that approach me? Give me such confidence that... I didnt realize before. I am very self conscious and look so much better behind my hair and a lot of filters I mean... Doesn't everyone? My goal is to feel confident in myself and lose weight. Food is such a comfort and bad habbit so going back to the health wagon asap. I want to reinvent myself and just clean slate with this whole move and everything. I want to have a more simpler life and be happy. I realize ppl can be toxic and my honesty sometimes can be the death of me.
I am thankful for those who have been so patient with me. I know I keep saying I'll come back, but I lack the motivation. I want to be like these girls that travel and have fun. look amazing and surrounded by good friends. I want to be happy and show people who I am and what things I want to share so badly, but I have this fear of being judged and I want to change that. I want to be better person.

Hello love bug! Been forever since I've done anything with my blog or youtube, but life isnt throwing me curveballs so I will be able to be more active! So here is whats new with me... Birthday was a hit, dating again, quit my horrible job, moved, and new obsessions. Lets get to it!


Last month was pretty hard getting settled into new situations and birthday was spent with a few ppl that matter most to me! I am glad to have them in my life! Co workers are like my family... and a couple I even grew up with so it is a blessing! that got me this "wedding" cake that is popular and tasted like heaven! After that I had smaller family dinners and individual friend dinners haha it was great!

I also quit my job that I honestly hated for such a long time. A women that hated me for no reason and gave me hard time, made me work harder for no reason... Bc her husband favors me? (who is the boss) or is it bc I wasn't stick thin? I tried my hardest to get her to like me.. I did everyone's chores, never spoke out, gave great customer service and after all that she still treated me like crap. I never will understand her work ethics. Tbh she is very childish and petty... For a grown ass woman. I don't regret working there since I met good ppl, but she is honestly... such a bitch. Shouldn't work somewhere with that type of vibe... Sad that I stayed in for that long. It is also sad... That many yelp reviews complain about her too lol and half  her staff leaves like... You would think you'd see the errors of your ways!


Sorry... mini vent haha so! Co workers and I started using dating apps for fun and one of the girls... Found a man! isnt that crazy?! So me and this other girl decided hey we should actually try this out and not just look through profiles ahaha! So the one I went on a date with... photos must of been hella old (LOL) but we exchange text messages back and forth for weeks? until hes like super persistent to meet up which is fine. I was super rusty so I didn't really want dinner... I hate eating... with ppl idk? Is that strange? I just dont feel comfortable and then that adds stress so... I turned to trusty facebook events and found this... acoustic grand opening something... It was called cinderblocks and it was like this art studio/music/ They lived there, but it was totally a hipster scene and I felt so bad LOL! But I totally need some distractions or else it gets akward right? Or im just... weird hahaha! Anyways he was super chill about it and sweet so it was nice!

I moved out of the place I was renting and... I have no idea renting from old vietnamese ppl was so difficult? They tried to get me to pay an extra month and all kinds of bullshit and I was so pissed! Not to mention they havent given me back my deposit... Its been a freaking month. A friend recommended it to me and I so regret living there... Moving in general sucks... 3rd time and all bad experiences...

So yeah! That is whats up on my end! Rekindled friendships that were lost over I guess pride, Will do a video on my birthday presents, I have started to coupon again! and many more to come! Sorry Ive been away... Promise it will be better! Love and thanks!