Hello my baby boooooo thang! Recently I have been into these asian shows that show drastic makeup changes and it made me realize... when they are in relationships and take off their face in front of them... Like how would the response be? Luckily... I am ok without makeup... Just a browless golem with freckles HA. No but srsly... how does one even react... I love this gif bc I can relate.. I hate my forehead, but my friend likes it and thinks its a universal godly trait to have, well back in the day.


I watched this and a lot of chinese one... and I think this is horrible in a way? These girls look alright, but to go on tv and be poked at idk! But I cant stop watching it... I admit I do a lil enhancements here and there on my photos, but it looks like me still these girls look so different! I love watching stuff like this oh my god...


This one I like a lot their makeup is amazing! I really want to learn eye tape and glue... No matter how hard I try it never looks good on my lids...  Is it because I already have crease? I feel like its the crease change and dramatic lashes that can change a female haha! If I was on any of the shows and these dude be acting up like that to me? I would most def kick him. I hate the hosts on these shows like they look any better, but still its interesting to see the makeup styles


Here is mine... I dont really have that much of a difference? I feel really dolled up like I said with lashes and circle lenses! I have been really into lining my lips a bit more than my natural shape? Digging Kylie Jenner's lips! I know its been injected with things,  but hey the color is nice! I havent been doing anything crazy lately with my makeup since I work a lot and have no time... Plus co workers said I look better without it so hahaha I'll take their word for it! I just really despise my freckles... I feel like its cuter on others, but not on me... I wonder if others think this way?


My birthday was last week and I didnt do much? No big dinner no nada just something simple with family... I feel like all the friends I had changed and doing other things and the ones that I was insanly close to are nothing more than backstabbers who are so twisted into thinking I am a faulty person. No. One was so bold to be rude about it trying to make it into a contest that he was superior to me in every way like... no. ok u went to the army ok u going back to school and drive a nice car, but it doesnt give you the right to be an asshole to someone bc I had a fall out with the girl you are so in love with that you side with her for everything. I am the fake one. right. I dont hangout with ppl I dont like so... Idk what fake means to you sir. Bc I vented... In my own social media... I am getting backlash.. for something so small? This isnt high school anymore. To think I actually admired them and respected so much. Its ok to talk shit about each other behind ones back, but not ok for me to vent. Not playing vicitm I am keeping it real. What I have done? didnt compare to the shit you all did so with that being said fuck the fake friends and good riddance. That is all with my little rant haha


But with that being said birthday was nice and presents... Even nicer! Ever since I moved out and lived here for almost a year now? I really do appreciate the small things and family more... I took a lot for granted and I realized  I cannot be sad and dwell on the past like I always do... I move forward, but I am always thinking of the what ifs and all that.. I finally said goodbye to the ex for good and deleted everything... It has been awhile.. and I am just ready for my change to begin. I have started off slow with the meal prepping but going to add workout regimen soon. I need to love myself before I truly love someone else. Anywho... I hope you have a great weekend! Time to hit the sack xoxo

I got a cute package in the mail and low and behold memebox sent me another wonderful box to try out! this one is filled with facial masks and... I love how you can use this and toss away! No fuss no must! I like the simplicity of things and these face mask have a good amount of product in it for your skin and can easily toss away when you done instead of having to rinse and re-apply a moisturizer... I LOVE  SIMPLICITY!!!!!


I hope you guys give them a shot! Website is easy to navigate through and you guys.... instead of waiting monthly for surprise items you might now want... You can actually choose which box to get! YES YOU GET TO CHOOSE WHAT ITEMS YOU WANT!

Hello Cutie!!! I got a marvelous package from pinkicon who allowed me to try out their lenses! When I got the package it is same as every other circle lens place! Bubble wrapped nice and snug with lots of goodies inside!


Awesome thing is that they gave pamphlets with the circle lenses you order! I thought this was neat! And give u a detailed how to booklet which is super impressive! I really like when they put detail into products or when they send them out! I usually look for that type of stuff! Its like they care and what you to have knowledge to help hehe!


I never heard of one day circle lenses... I thought this was an amazing idea! I dont condone ppl wearing them for the full year! You have to remember... How long the products been in that container, how long u wear them through out the day, debre and makeup junk that gets onto the lens, how you clean, etc. You just have to be careful with your eyes when wearing circle lenses I cannot stress that enough... Through many trial and error... I know what im talking about so head my words!



I love the fade these lenses have! It looks semi natural hehe! I usually stay within browns and grey... Suits my eyes well! I thought these are amazing! I mean its a waste to throw away these beauts, but at least my eyes will be ok haha

Hello pumpkin! It has been a long time since I had a chance to touch base with you! A lot of drama, sweat, blood, and tears these past few months and frankly... I am so glad to be out of that chaos... As many of you know... I decided to move in with a friend, to test the waters of living away from my family and cheaper rent. Everyone told me and advice me never move in with a friend unless you know they can keep up their end. BOY WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT LISTEN?! Long story short, I let a lot of bullshit slide and a total of... 6 ppl living with me with no money. 6 ppl should make rent super cheap and easy right? NOPE. Dont get me started on the landlord! So much stupid drama happened when it could of easily been fixed, but instead it was let to linger and fester and having all of us to move out. GREAT! I was at this point, stressing like never before, scrambling trying to figure out where im going to live and what not, MIND YOU during this time I got a new job and transitioning out of my old job so money was already tight as is. I finally found a place near my work and it is in this melting pot of foreigners and oh my god lol its pretty ghetto on the outside... but I got a loft and its so nice inside... My neighbors... however... I swear theres like a circus LOL so many ppl living in this one bedroom loft...

Being an adult is really hard... I have to pay this new renter fee that kicked me in the butt, non refundable.. and my roomate? Had the audacity to ask me about money? Which was fine if we were all to split it equally, but no. apparently 2 ppl couldnt pay cuz of being broke? OK? and she started giving me this sob story that just irate me when she said we have to pay bills bottom line. Well u should preach to the other two, but again she sticks up for them and I ONCE AGAIN get the short end of the stick. I paid of course just so that I have nothing to do with them again. Oh. and did I mentioned they stole my ugg boots? LOL! Good god no fucking sympathy to any of them.

I am pretty much by myself... had to get movers on my own... move things and do everything by myself... luckily my good friend Christian helped when she can, but it is the struggle and I feel so depressed all the time and hopeless... I know this hard time will pass and I will do better later on, but I srsly cant see it and handle everything... I am also homesick, but I want to prove to my family and myself I can do this... I need to go church and pray lawdddd..

My new job? Just opened so it is an amazing salon that is brand spanking new and my co-workers are so nice and sweet, but theres a language barrier... I am the only one that speaks well haha other than my boss and manager, who are siblings! Speaking of boss... We will call him Mr. B is always flirtatious with me and always wants to go eat out LOL I never... Had this type of work type relationship? He is my boss haha that forbidden love interest... Hes not married... but has 2 kids? I decided to look him up in my book of birthdays and compatibility  and guess what he is under? He is my soulmate LOOOL!!!!! Usually... When I read someones horoscope or zodiac signs to see if compatible or not.... Is on point. So with my exes or friends It is pretty spot on... So with that being said and finding him under my soulmate... I am conflicted since... It is better relationship for work vs. love interest? I am a control freak capricorn and he is as well in a way... But I am more timid and shy where as hes the opposite. I wonder if "opposites attract" applies to this.

So this is pretty much what is going on in my life right now. Escaping bullshit from ex roomates to working my butt off trying to make ends meet. I lost a lot of so called friends and pretty much by myself these days and its really hard to go through... I will try to finish moving in and make videos on the side and figure out what what I have to do to stay sane... Sorry to keep you waiting all the time! I do miss making videos and blogging! Life is just srsly so hard right now and a lot of times I just want to break down and cry, but what good would come out of that? Im trying to prove myself right now... Lets see how far I can go!